I admit I'm not great at this blogging thing

Especially since I started up again. So I've been reading blogs instead to get my mind off my immediate surroundings and I stumbled across Empress who, while apparently a...really confident girl, has actually helped me somewhat in the above-referenced beyond being entertaining. I've tried to write to jumpstart nursing the wounds of the last year, especially the last couple months, and failed abominably--and I can usually pass as a good writer, mostly when I've caught my boyfriend cheating again :) (Another story, but not the time.) It seems that I need to figure out my issues before I log on, according to what I just read. Or is it that I'm better at traditional writing, i.e., pen and paper? Could be. Maybe I need to pay an unannounced visit to the bf's :)

Empress chica is interesting. I wonder, though, if she's so upbeat because she's still so young. At 28--officially 22--I'm no dinosaur, but I skiddided (as a college professor once put it) off the less complicated route a long time ago and I feel 45 sometimes. Would I have turned out that arrogant if I hadn't fallen off the horse? Yeah, yeah, everyone says I've done great, but I think I know better. I have not met my self-imposed goals. And being smart and pretty doesn't take you places emotionally.

I gotta get out once I get over this flu. Still writing badly.